Saturday, June 15, 2013

It isn't About The Nail


                  
                   

                                                  It really isn't about the nail!!




 Erin, over at Living in Yellow posted this video and I had to share it. I was laughing so hard. It  is so true. Not only with our husbands or boyfriends, but with everyday life. Sometimes we complain about things that really bother us and never realize that the problem is right in front of us. In her case, she would have to look in a mirror, but, I think you get the idea!  I am so guilty of this!!

I can't tell you how many times I have sat and complained about something when the answer is so simple and so easy to fix. I think we get caught up in this thing called life and fail to see the great big picture right in front of us.

I showed this to my husband, Marty and he laughed. Then he looked at me and said, "yep, that would be you!!."  I plead guilty!! I do tend to be a drama queen more times then I would like to admit. However, he flies by the seat of his pants and I make a list for everything! They say, opposites attract.

 I hope this video makes you laugh. I watched it twice and the guys expression and what he said had me rolling!

                                                                  Cathy
                                                                      :)

Friday, May 17, 2013

The Wind Beneath My Wings

Well, I thought I would re-cap my birthday week. It started out so good. We left for Vegas on the third of May. One week before my birthday. We took my mom with us. She wanted to stay at my cousins and visit with her sister. Marty and I got a hotel. The ride to Vegas was uneventful, until we were almost there. My mom never told me that she was having really bad pain in her back. She was not going to have anything ruin her trip. We were about 30 minutes from my cousins house and the pain was so sever she could barely sit in the car. I gave her some Tylenol and got a hot pack to put on her back. (Yes, I carry hot packs when we travel. The ones you twist and they get hot. I carry every known drug I might need in my tote. I really don't like paying $5.00 for two Tylenol at a hotel.) She said she felt better, so she stayed at my cousins and Marty and I went to our hotel.

We had such a great time. The man knows how to make the start of my birthday week fun. I called and checked on my mom 20 times in those 3 days. She said she was feeling good and that she was having fun. I should have never believed her!! When we went to pick her up and go home. She could barely walk.

Since my parents use to live in Nevada. I knew where all the hospitals were. I told her I would take her and she refused. Needless to say, the ride home was not to much fun for her.

When we got home she slept and didn't wake up to the next morning. She did pretty well during the day. That night, the pain came back again, only this time, when she stood up, she was covered in blood.

I called 911 and they rushed her to the hospital. They admitted her right away. They never found out why she was bleeding or why she had the back pain. They did however start her on antibiotics and gave her two blood transfusions. Then she went into A-Fib and her 02 levels were very low. They thought she had a blood clot in her lung. They ran tests and found out that everything was clear.

On my Birthday. I spent it at the hospital with my mom. (As I did everyday since she was admitted .) That night Marty took me out to eat. We had a nice dinner. I just couldn't get into it. I was so worried about my mom.

The next day, Saturday, My mom made a complete turn around. The doctors were amazed and so was I. Her team of doctors told me that if she is the same the next day, on Mothers Day she could come home.
Mothers Day came and went. My mom couldn't come home. She had fallen trying to get out of bed. She was very weak and couldn't stand on her own. She sprained her ankle and injured her knee really bad. My mom has been completely  bed ridden. It has been five days. She is not making any progress. Her body is weak and she is confused and mentally unstable. If she can stay in her bed for 24 hours without a sitter, ( the confusion she is having makes that a very hard task for the sitter.) they will transfer her to a rehab facility. There, they will hopefully get her mobile and because she won't be laying in a bed all day, her confusion will subside.

This has been so hard on our family. It has been especially hard on me. My mom lives with us since my dad passed away. We shop together, go to lunch and do so much everyday.

It is hard for me to see her this way. It is harder to not know what our Heavenly Father has planed for her. I wish I could say that the rehab will be a fix all for her, but I can't. I pray everyday that His will be done.

My mom is an active lady. One who still did her hair every morning, put her makeup on and ironed her clothes, ( Who irons???)  She loves to shop, a trait she taught me how to do very well. She is an amazing friend and I miss her so much.

So, my birthday week didn't go the way I though it would. Marty had so many things planed for us to do. I always look forward to what my daughter, friends and Marty plan. We do birthdays big in our family. Especially for the kids. Yet, I wouldn't have spent the last 10 days any other way.

My mom has always been there for me. She was my rock when my son was in the hospital for 11 moths with cancer. She has been the best friend a daughter could ever have.

She has truly always been the wind beneth my wings.
 I love you mom. I pray you can recover from this.
This song is for  you! <3 p="">xoxo




Thursday, May 2, 2013

Top Ten

I love music. Any kind of music. I love driving and blaring it in my car. Music to me has so much meaning. There isn't one type of music that I listen to. I love country, rap, R&B, rock and the list goes on.

So, I decided to write down my top ten favorite songs right now. Some are old. Some are new. This was not easy because there are so many that are my favorite. I love Faith Hill and Tim McGraw. They didn't make it on my list but I really do love them.

So, here are my favorite top ten songs...

10,OMG...Usher
9, Pocket Full Of Sunshine...Natasha Bedingfield
8, Brighter Then The Sun...Colbie Callat. (This is mine and Elle's song!)
7, You And Me Against The World...Helen Reedy. (This was mine and my son's song. It still is, even though he is in Heaven.)
6, Diamonds in the sky...Rihanna
5, Summer Nights...Rascal Flats (I love hot summer nights!)
4, Roll On...Kid Rock
3, From where you are...Lighthouse. (I heard this song on Pandora and thought of my son!)
2, Stay...Rihanna
*1, When I was your man...Bruno Mars

I think Usher and Bruno Mars are amazing performers and I love the two songs above. I also like some of Jack Johnson's music, Upside Down. Reminds me of being on the boat at the river.( Sorry Jack, you didn't make the cut!) Music seems to always bring back a memory for me. If I like the song and I  connect it to something. That song then becomes part of that memory.

Roll On by Kid Rock will always remind me of summer 3 years ago. I think I over played that song. Can't help it. I love it!

So, do you love music? Do certain songs bring back memories? Do you drive with the stereo up really loud and sing off key like I do?

What are your favorite songs right now??

I would love to know.

Cathy




Wednesday, April 24, 2013

It seems like days go by so fast. It is so hard to believe it is almost May. My birthday month. I milk it for all it is worth.My sweet husband is on it now. It only took 20 + years for him to get on board. I believe that there is no way to celebrate a birthday in one day. So, I like to spread it out for at least a week, or more. I have a feeling it gets old after awhile. So, a week is good.  It works for me.

We are still looking for plants for the front of our house. Maybe I should share a little about the soil where we live. I think it may or may not be toxic. I have only seen a hand full of homes up here where they don't have box wood. Most  front yards  either have round bushes or square bushes. That's it. Oh, and rose bushes. I am not a fan of any of those.  I am determined to travel to get the plants that I think would look pretty in our front yard. I am also determined to keep said plants alive in soil that I think may or may not be toxic.We had the (box) bushes removed. We kept one. I mean, it would look odd if we didn't. We would be the only house on the block who didn't have a square bush in our front yard. It has all been cleaned up and I cringe every time we pull into our driveway. It is so bare. Marty said, with a smile, "I either find something this weekend or he will pick something out." I have no doubt it will be round or square at some point. So I have my work cut out for me this weekend. Wish me luck!

I would like to invite you to read Britni's blog. You can read her story here and here If you haven't read my blog. Which I know not very many do. I am not to into it. A once in a while post makes me happy. But, if someone is reading can you please take a minute to leave her some love. You will leave so inspired.
 hopefirmandsecure.blogspot.com

Well, I am going to get ready for my babies. They are coming over for a big Italian dinner. Compliments of my mom, because seriously, no one would even come over for dinner if they new I cooked it. I will, someday have the desire to cook. As of now I will continue to leave that to the chef in the family. Marty! He is an amazing cook. I have OCD, so I love to clean. That is my job. It works for us and no one gets sick from my cooking..Win-Win! :) 


 Enjoy the rest of your week
:)
Cathy

Friday, March 29, 2013

Happy Easter

Happy Easter to all. I hope everyone has a blessed day.

This is the day the Lord has made, let us rejoice and be glad in it!

Thursday, March 21, 2013

One dieing bush?

We have been enjoying some beautiful weather in Cali. I have already started planting some flowers. Only a few. My luck, we will get another freeze. I  figured I would plant some and if they die I can always bring them back. We never know what April will bring. Hopefully the worst is over!!

We are having some landscaping done in the front of our house. A (one) bush is dieing, so my husband  told me he was going to ask the gardener to remove it. It is pretty big. I am sure the roots are huge. However, that is not what I heard. What I heard was, we are redesigning the whole front yard. Starting over from scratch. The grass will stay because it is my husbands pride and joy and it really is beautiful. So...I have been looking everywhere to get ideas on how I want the "whole" front yard to look. I never really  took much interest in front yards. Now when I drive by, I go really slow. When  I am with Marty,. I have him back up a couple of times so I can see a certain house. This may or may not drive him crazy. He is really good about it though. He just says that the people that own the house that we keep going back and forth to see probably think we are nuts! Poor guy, he is probably right. That doesn't bother him as much as when I take a picture of someones house. I am a visual person. The best ideas are on my camera. So, needless to say. ...

That one dieing bush will soon turn into a complete new look of our front yard. I can't wait to post before and afters. I am really excited. I think it is about time. It gets old driving up to the same front yard everyday. I am sure Marty will agree. I use to do this to my living room. I never could find the right furniture. I am in love with my furniture now. The poor man thought he was safe.

In all honesty. I really wish the bush didn't need to be removed. But,  that will be my little secret.

                                                    Let the landscaping begin!
                                                         Have a great day
                                                                   :)

                                                                 Cathy




Tuesday, March 12, 2013

A letter from Brittni

I wanted to share this letter from my sweet friend Brittni. I want to be able to come back here some day when I need to be reminded of the love God has for us. Some days we need to be reminded. I can't imagine a better way then through the bravery, love and faith that is Brittni and Steven.

I am also sharing a picture of precious Zeke. He is so beautiful.I feel honored and blessed to have held his little hand. He held mine so tight. I will never forget this precious baby. Sleep with angels sweet baby boy.



I wish today I could have awaken to just another day... Kicks and flips from the greatest gift I have ever been given... But I didn't. I wish I could say all is good in this world... But it isn't. There is a whole in my heart that will never be filled. My orange juice this morning didnt hold the same splendor knowing it wouldn't bring my boy back. As we are forced with the reality of walking the halls of a funeral home the sting is ever present. Our faith has never promised to rid us of this pain and hurt. The Lord will never bring our son into our arms here on earth again... But He will bring us to our son. He did promise to cry along side us as we are weeping.. He does know our pain... He will NEVER leave us... He is close to the broken hearted... And He has given us the gift of eternal life. With all of that being said there are a few details I feel compelled to share that help express the unexplainable peace we have received in the midst of the greatest grief one could know.

Our son entered the world on march 9th ... 61 hours and 37 minutes after I was admitted. If you are assuming many were at their wits end, you are only scratching the surface. I can't tell you how much pressure I felt to appease everyone who had spent days camped out waiting for his appearance... Aside from the overwhelming excitement from knowing I was finally on the verge of holding my baby.!! We awoke that morning to a verse of the day....

2 Peter 1:5-8
For this very reason, make every effort to add to your faith goodness; and to goodness, knowledge; and to knowledge, self-control; and to self-control, perseverance; and to perseverance, godliness; and to godliness, mutual affection; and to mutual affection, love. For if you possess these qualities in increasing measure, they will keep you from being ineffective and unproductive in your knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ.

Funny. The last two days had been "unsuccessful" in the eyes of everyone surrounding us. Good reminder God... Good sense of humor as well. After that we were visited by the new dr on staff. She was amazing and meant for us, for our son and his delivery... But we didn't know that yet. Once she gave us news of our only minimal progress we were visited by our small group and I was back onto pitocin. Only minutes later a few members of our church's pastoral care team visited us. They prayer over us and anointed me with oil. We felt so blessed and recharged. Next thing we knew as I'm sitting in the bed chatting it up my water breaks... I had already been having contractions on my own but after the pitocin and my water went it was a slippery slope to painville.!! I had no idea I would finally be reaching labor, hard labor, so quickly.

The doctor who had come on that morning was so attentive and caring. She was constantly in checking on us and doing tasks that are not within her job description. As soon as he was out and taken to the NICU she was doing everything she could to get me out of my bed and to my babies side. She asked to be the one to take us to his side and poured love on all three of us. All throughout the night she was in our room loving and mourning along side of us. This women was chosen by God to be the person to deliver Ezekiel. She gave all the glory to Him and showered His love as I don't feel any other doctor could have. All our staff was such a blessing and would take days to list each individually. (I will get to a post someday to recognize all of the hoops that the people of our hospital went through for us.... From operating outside of policy... To staying past the end of shifts or coming in on days off to be with us... They stopped at nothing.!!)

In honoring Him and giving it all to Him, His will was done. Our son graced our presence that same day... And we were blessed with time. 6 hours and 11 minutes of time... Spent fulfilling our every wish we had prayed for. We knew our time was not going to be like that of other families with their newborns and we dreamed accordingly; all the while knowing that if God saw it be fit in His will to heal our son here in our arms rather than His own He would... But that was not a part of the upper story. We still do not know the upper story, and quite frankly we never may... But we do know he is whole in the arms of Jesus. His beauty here on earth will leave a lasting imprint in our hearts and an ever present image on our minds. I have never known such beauty in my life. While I am crushed beyond earthly repair that he has left my arms... I am so grateful he is now flying among angels awaiting the day I come into his presence yet again.

All our love
God bless.



If anyone would like to donate to Zeke's memorial fund please visit their memorial page,
  • Please feel free to share this on your blog. Lets all help this precious couple reach their goal for the memorial bench.. They have never asked for anything. Please let them have this one wish, to remember their baby by..   Please refer all back to my blog where they can leave a comment for Steven and Britni to see or on her facebook page, "Blessings of Ezekiel Anthony". Lets shower them with love. Thank you!!
                                               In faith and love,
                                                    Cathy