Friday, May 17, 2013

The Wind Beneath My Wings

Well, I thought I would re-cap my birthday week. It started out so good. We left for Vegas on the third of May. One week before my birthday. We took my mom with us. She wanted to stay at my cousins and visit with her sister. Marty and I got a hotel. The ride to Vegas was uneventful, until we were almost there. My mom never told me that she was having really bad pain in her back. She was not going to have anything ruin her trip. We were about 30 minutes from my cousins house and the pain was so sever she could barely sit in the car. I gave her some Tylenol and got a hot pack to put on her back. (Yes, I carry hot packs when we travel. The ones you twist and they get hot. I carry every known drug I might need in my tote. I really don't like paying $5.00 for two Tylenol at a hotel.) She said she felt better, so she stayed at my cousins and Marty and I went to our hotel.

We had such a great time. The man knows how to make the start of my birthday week fun. I called and checked on my mom 20 times in those 3 days. She said she was feeling good and that she was having fun. I should have never believed her!! When we went to pick her up and go home. She could barely walk.

Since my parents use to live in Nevada. I knew where all the hospitals were. I told her I would take her and she refused. Needless to say, the ride home was not to much fun for her.

When we got home she slept and didn't wake up to the next morning. She did pretty well during the day. That night, the pain came back again, only this time, when she stood up, she was covered in blood.

I called 911 and they rushed her to the hospital. They admitted her right away. They never found out why she was bleeding or why she had the back pain. They did however start her on antibiotics and gave her two blood transfusions. Then she went into A-Fib and her 02 levels were very low. They thought she had a blood clot in her lung. They ran tests and found out that everything was clear.

On my Birthday. I spent it at the hospital with my mom. (As I did everyday since she was admitted .) That night Marty took me out to eat. We had a nice dinner. I just couldn't get into it. I was so worried about my mom.

The next day, Saturday, My mom made a complete turn around. The doctors were amazed and so was I. Her team of doctors told me that if she is the same the next day, on Mothers Day she could come home.
Mothers Day came and went. My mom couldn't come home. She had fallen trying to get out of bed. She was very weak and couldn't stand on her own. She sprained her ankle and injured her knee really bad. My mom has been completely  bed ridden. It has been five days. She is not making any progress. Her body is weak and she is confused and mentally unstable. If she can stay in her bed for 24 hours without a sitter, ( the confusion she is having makes that a very hard task for the sitter.) they will transfer her to a rehab facility. There, they will hopefully get her mobile and because she won't be laying in a bed all day, her confusion will subside.

This has been so hard on our family. It has been especially hard on me. My mom lives with us since my dad passed away. We shop together, go to lunch and do so much everyday.

It is hard for me to see her this way. It is harder to not know what our Heavenly Father has planed for her. I wish I could say that the rehab will be a fix all for her, but I can't. I pray everyday that His will be done.

My mom is an active lady. One who still did her hair every morning, put her makeup on and ironed her clothes, ( Who irons???)  She loves to shop, a trait she taught me how to do very well. She is an amazing friend and I miss her so much.

So, my birthday week didn't go the way I though it would. Marty had so many things planed for us to do. I always look forward to what my daughter, friends and Marty plan. We do birthdays big in our family. Especially for the kids. Yet, I wouldn't have spent the last 10 days any other way.

My mom has always been there for me. She was my rock when my son was in the hospital for 11 moths with cancer. She has been the best friend a daughter could ever have.

She has truly always been the wind beneth my wings.
 I love you mom. I pray you can recover from this.
This song is for  you! <3 p="">xoxo




Thursday, May 2, 2013

Top Ten

I love music. Any kind of music. I love driving and blaring it in my car. Music to me has so much meaning. There isn't one type of music that I listen to. I love country, rap, R&B, rock and the list goes on.

So, I decided to write down my top ten favorite songs right now. Some are old. Some are new. This was not easy because there are so many that are my favorite. I love Faith Hill and Tim McGraw. They didn't make it on my list but I really do love them.

So, here are my favorite top ten songs...

10,OMG...Usher
9, Pocket Full Of Sunshine...Natasha Bedingfield
8, Brighter Then The Sun...Colbie Callat. (This is mine and Elle's song!)
7, You And Me Against The World...Helen Reedy. (This was mine and my son's song. It still is, even though he is in Heaven.)
6, Diamonds in the sky...Rihanna
5, Summer Nights...Rascal Flats (I love hot summer nights!)
4, Roll On...Kid Rock
3, From where you are...Lighthouse. (I heard this song on Pandora and thought of my son!)
2, Stay...Rihanna
*1, When I was your man...Bruno Mars

I think Usher and Bruno Mars are amazing performers and I love the two songs above. I also like some of Jack Johnson's music, Upside Down. Reminds me of being on the boat at the river.( Sorry Jack, you didn't make the cut!) Music seems to always bring back a memory for me. If I like the song and I  connect it to something. That song then becomes part of that memory.

Roll On by Kid Rock will always remind me of summer 3 years ago. I think I over played that song. Can't help it. I love it!

So, do you love music? Do certain songs bring back memories? Do you drive with the stereo up really loud and sing off key like I do?

What are your favorite songs right now??

I would love to know.

Cathy